Man I am tired..

Today was a friggin busy day. Loved every minute of it though. I love being busy, because I feel productive, it’s nice. All the shopping is done, but still have the wrapping to do, anyone want to come over and do it for me?

They spoke today on the phone, and she told G about the accident she was involved in a couple month’s ago. So terribly, terribly sad. She hit a 4 year old girl while driving, who later died after her injuries. She’s not being charged with anything though, which is good, because it wasn’t her fault, or anyone’s fault for that matter. Even with that though, I don’t want to reach out and be her friend. I just don’t see it working out, but who knows how I feel later on.

Oh and the bad no-no of the day.. G turned down going bowling with me, for a meeting online that he had at 8 for his gaming buddies. Of course, our computer wouldn’t allow it, and somehow we picked up a nasty virus in it, so it started going all wacky, took it about 4 hours to get back to normal after cleaning the computer out. Hopefully that virus won’t come to a head anymore. The reason why it’s a bad no-no..is because my bro is here, G and I could have went alone.. He is lucky it’s Christmas, and I am feeling merry, or else I would have gave him the cold shoulder, but eh the kids love it there too, so we will all go togethor next week, what’s alone time with the man your going to spend the rest of your life time with eh? Got plenty of time to have alone time, I like to think of it that way.

I need to sleep.

Lady Satan is near.

I’m unnerved.Long story short…The first woman G ever loved is in Idaho….within 20 minutes communting….She called the mother in law, trying to get info on him…Mother in law refused to give it. (bless her heart) She is the woman who tore G’s heart out stomped on it and ate it until it’s death…He ended up in a cuckoo house for a couple days because of it..tried to commit suicide…It’s all old news..Or is it..?He said a couple years ago he will always love her in a way…That disturbs me…I hate her with a bloody passion because of what she made him go through..She played him like a deck of cards over and over again..He is showing interest without acknowledging he is showing interest in getting in contact…I know I am just being insecure…she just makes my blood boil..and I haven’t ever met her, or spoke to her…I only know what G’s told me about her. He spoke about her alot when we first got togethor, I know practically everything about her and him back in the day, it wasn’t pretty. She is also the woman who destroyed G past the point of fully loving or trusting anyone else ever again. I can say that with confidence, because G has said that himself. I spent the first couple years of our relationship trying to prove to him he could trust me and allow himself to fully love me. I think only now he does with me. Lady Satan best not step too far past any boundaries, or she’s going to meet her match. G is loving how pissed I am. He is playing it like a game, he just called and asked me to look up the prefix for her phone number that he called his mom for today. He laughed the whole time, little bugger.

I need to breathe.

This post really goes to show how friggin grown up I am eh? Sheesh. I really need to just forget it.. maybe.

Still alive

This place is still very much alive, but I haven’t felt the need to write here yet, but I will soon. =)

He spilled the beans

Hahahah every year G takes pride in the fact that he can hold christmas secrets away from me, like what I am getting for a present or whatever. This year it lasted two seconds. He got off the phone with his mom, and turned around and was like You would love this camera, OOPS! lol So after he spilled the beans, I had to make sure that it was a better then my fuji, and research it and whatnot. The camera I am getting for christmas is a downgrade, it is a Pentax K110D and it’s performance isn’t near as good as the Fuji I own now, but it has the ability to put lenses on it unlike the Fuji. So I am pretty excited. I priced the lenses though and the prices are ridiculous. The camera itself is a little outrageous as well. It makes me feel bad when people spend money on me, especially that much money.

I have never heard of the Pentax brand in cameras at all, but supposedly this camera will fit any Pentax lense I could find on it. I can’t wait to have it in my hands and play with it, so perhaps between the Fuji and the new camera I will be getting, I will be able to accomplish a little more with my photography. Will just have to wait and see.., as for new lenses, I have no clue where to start, I want one that does great magnifying for macros, and then I want a fisheye lense. Ah the possibilities.. I can’t wait for christmas.