My goals for 2008

I decided I would make my goal list a little early this year, every year like many other people worldwide, I like to start my goals on a said date, usually the new year, and be lazy in a sense that I won’t work on these goals until then. I think it’s mighty funny myself really. But hey if I can grab inspiration from the new day of a new year, then why the hell not. I am not going into my goals, saying I will succeed, but I do have intentions of succeeding, I think that may set me up for failure, but if I do fail with good intentions, is that still failing? I at least tried right? lol Before I confuse myself further, here is my list of goals for 2008.

1. Getting my old body back, it may take me all year, but this is my highest priority goal.

2. Moving sometime in the middle of the year or sooner, to a more suitable place for my family.

3. Hopefully getting a job in the fall of next year when my oldest starts school, or perhaps sooner, if I can get the financial aid for the ridiculous childcare costs.

4. Going further with my photography, and hopefully grab a spot in a flea market sometime in the summer, to sell some of my work.

5. Seeing my family again back east, and getting my dad to go with me to a tattoo shop to get matching tattoo’s, maybe I can convince my auntie of the same.

6. Not cutting my hair all year, this is an odd one yes, but for me it’s also hard, I want long hair, but I keep cutting it off, so this next year I am not going to cut it at all.

7. Making the trip to see my old friends, it’s important to me, I haven’t been back since I moved away, and I want to see where I grew up, I heard someone is taking really nice care of the place, which makes me happy.

8. Getting more sleep, I don’t get near enough as I should, likely due to my caffeine intake, but that will decrease, and hopefully I can sleep better when I need to. Staying up until 2 in the morning and getting up only 5 hours later is killing me.
9. Along with getting my old body back, I plan on taking up running, so this goal is completing a mile in less then 9 minutes. I imagine if I try right now to do a mile, my time would be at least 13 minutes, I am not sure, I will test that out soon. My fastest time when I was a fit little chica, was 7 minutes and 32 seconds, which was decent.

I wanted to think of ten goals, but I think the 9 that I have right here is plenty, I don’t want to set to many now, that would be silly. lol. So that’s all my goals for 2008, have you made your list yet? I suggest you don’t wait until New Years Eve or something.

A question I ask myself

Is nothing genuine anymore…? I don’t friggin know.

I am an AUNTIE!! :D

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Nova, originally uploaded by Kelzta.

Isn’t she adorable, her name is Nova Lynn ans she weighs in a only 5 pounds and 6 ounces. She is the tiniest baby I have ever seen, but that could be because she is a preemie. I got to see her today, she is only 2 days old today.

Buckcherry get’s soft

Buckcherry, one of my favorite bands who also sing Crazy bitch, has come out with a new song, and I already love it. Enjoy..

The only thing I don’t like about it is the rhyming of die with cry in the song, it just seems like something a middle schooler would do, but I don’t hate.

Why in the world..

In my time online these past couple years, I have ran across a few blogs that are of dying people. These people are facing death at any moment’s notice, and they want to blog about it all, they want to help people understand what it’s like for the person who is dieing, rather then what it’s like for their families. I have to question why they do this. Why on earth spend your last days blogging about whatever it is they blog about. I can totally empathize with them, as they need to reach out, to find some sort of peace with it all. I have to admit that reading some of those blogs, have brought me to tears. I never re-visited those blogs again though. Not because it was a bad blog, but because I didn’t want to read about it, it reminds me of the death’s I have had to cope with in my circle of family and friends.

I think if a doctor told me today that I had such and such time to live, I would disconnect from all technology, and just relish in the love of my family, and my love for nature. I would much rather sit under some stars, and cry and vent and voice my fears, then use my energy up typing it out on a blog. I would write in journals that I would hide around the house, for in fear that perhaps my children would find it someday, and be haunted by my words. I know if my mother would have kept a blog, I would not want to read it, it would in fact haunt me, it would have made me question things, make me want to go back and do things differently. I may not be like most, when I say that I find comfort in ignorance. I ignore what I have to, to survive. Granted I have my days where I relish in the past and my old fears, but for the most part you have to ignore the pull of depression, and keep running. As long as I keep running, I am ok.

Why are we attract to all things that wrench our heart out? Why if on a regular day you go on about your business, and happen to see something on television, that rips your heart out in pity and sorrow? Why do we need to face sorrow to learn how to love? Why does it take people’s death to make you want to reach out to them? I have many more questions about life, and most will go unanswered. Why..I don’t know.

I don’t live my life to the fullest, nor do I make every day as if it were my last, but I subconsciously make sure everyday that I tell my boy’s I love them, and send my husband off to work with a hug and kiss, it’s the least I can do for what I don’t know and cannot control.

This post really just took off on it’s own. I am glad to be writing something worthwhile again.

By golly gee am I lucky! :D

I just found $200 dollars. The same $200 dollars I hide from myself and hubby almost a year ago.

With this week the hub has off, it is coming in extremly handy since it’s not a paid week off for him.

Ironically I found it in a tux coat that we bought at about the same time for GNow I can tell him “I told ya so” He said long ago that I spent it, and I KNEW that I didn’t spend it.

I am a happy lady right about now.

A weeks vacation

This whole next week is a vacation week for hub, so he will be here all week, I imagine because he is here that I will not be able to post much, the guy games more then he talk some days. lol. So I will just be quietly prancing around behind the scenes as always. Thursday is thanksgiving, which will be busy again this year. Got G’s family all over the place here, and lot’s of chitlens for my kids to run around with, so it’ll be nice. I am in charge of a veggie side dish, so I am thinking a salad will do just fine, that or I will find something cool to do with some veggies. I miss being able to cook the whole dinner, there is no challenge in cooking one dish.

Mattman enjoyed his birthday and is still playing with his transformer helmet all day long, hopefully he will get out of it soon, or I will sneak some batteries away like an evil mommy. lol. After seeing the video about the helmet, eh wants to now get the truck gun, lord help me, if he had his choice, it would be everything transformers. I loved the movie though. I was thinking it would be a cheesy B movie, but that was so not the case. My favorite part is the end where Optimus Prime does his little speech, it’s totally fab.

Well I think that’s about it for right now.

peace!

This will be my new diary

Yup you read that title right, this will be the place where I rant and rave, I will not share photos here, this will purely be a blog to focus on my writing as therapy as I have wanted before, when I first started bloggin this is what I wanted out of blogging, so I am going to use this place strictly for that and nothing more.

peace!

WordPress or blogger?

I am seriously considering moving my blog over to wordpress, I really love that there are a gazillion themes to choose from, and have a lot more option then blogger does.

So in the next few days, I will experiment with wordpress and weigh out my options before I seriously switch everything over. I am familiar with wordpress and I think I will achieve more with that then here at blogger, but I’ll see.

Just so you know..

*EDIT* I just may start another blog over there, purely for something I will figure out soon enough. lol

My oldest turned five

It was a great day despite the downpour of rain all day.